| Make it a Point to Get Lost from Time to Time |
February 13, 2000
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I want to give you two stories of perspective.
One.
Over the years, I have learned that every life circumstance,
even a crisis, can nourish your soul. Recently, the farm
and home that I have loved so much for so many years burned down in a
horrible fire. Everything that I owned, without exception, was
lost. There was even speculation that foul play was involved.
At moments like this, we stand at a fork in the road. If
we take the fork most commonly traveled, we collapse, we
give up, feeling hopeless and defeated. We focus on the
negatives, losing ourselves in the "problem."
We point to our unhappy circumstances to rationalize our
negative feelings. This is the easy way out. It takes, after
all, very little effort to feel victimized.
We can, however, take the other fork. We can view the unhappy
experience as an opportunity for a new beginning. We can keep our
perspective, look for the growth opportunities, and find an inner
reservoir of strength. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross,
Handbook for the Soul (New York: Little, Brown
& Co, 1995), 49.
Two.
My former professor and friend Gene Lowry tells of going to
preach at a church in the countryside of Missouri that a student
was serving while in seminary. Like many built in the
19th century this church had a cemetery to it's side
with a stone and iron grate fence around it.
Lowry observed that the parsonage was located on the opposite
side of the cemetery from the church. He questioned the pastor
about this, "Am I mistaken or do you have to walk through the
cemetery to get to the church."
"Unless I want to walk all the way around and over a couple
of fences." And then the pastor jokes, "Yeah though I
walk through the valley of the shadow of death I fear no
evil."
"What's it like?" asked Lowry.
"I think of them as a cloud of witnesses, people
who built the church, people who were born here,
lived here, practiced faith here, and died
here... people who passed on this community. I walk through
this cloud of witnesses every Sunday morning...on my way to weddings,
to funerals. But that's not what is strange."
"Huh? Grunted Lowry.
"The parsonage is only about 20 years old. When the man
came with his bulldozer to push out the dirt for the foundation he
found, in the pile of dirt, bones, human bones."
After a little checking and talking to some of the ancients around
town they found they had dug up the grave yard of former slaves who
had served the members of the church but were buried behind the
cemetery, outside the walls of respectability.
Can you hang on? I'll tell you the rest of the story...but not
just yet.
Read
2 Kings 5:1-14
Mazes.
Normally we try to avoid any sort of a maze, anything that leads to
confusion and despair.
They might be great for rats in Psychology 101, but not for
people.
Certainly not for kings, princes or politicians. Not for someone
as important as Namaan.
Yet, this is precisely where the poor man of our story finds himself:
in a maze, a labyrinth, a puzzle,
conundrum, befuddlement.
Today, mazes are hot.
Labyrinths, created on ancient patterns dating back 6,000 years,
are popping up all over the country.
People of all faiths and people longing to re-connect to faith come
to walk labyrinths. "I found peace and a sense of God's
presence that I had not experienced since childhood,"
responds a labyrinth walker.
Some of the earliest forms of labyrinths are found in Greece,
dating back to 2500-2000 BC. and are found at the core of
civilization...embossed on coins and pottery.
And now in our time they've been mowed and shaped in fields,
installed in church foyers and cathedral naves, laid out in back
yards, painted on parking lots. Kind of A-maze-ing, huh?
Those who walk the labyrinths testify that the experience evokes
healing and self-knowledge, serenity and anxiety reduction.
"If you walk it with the right frame of mind, I think you're
going to be a different person when you come out it," gushes
Maggie Moschell to The Cincinnati Enquirer.
Sounds far-fetched, doesn't it? We've all been forced to drive
circles in parking lots, scavenging for spaces, and there's rarely any
stress reduction in that exercise!
But labyrinth-lovers encourage us to give the coil a chance.
Here's the drill: Walkers start at the sole opening of the maze
and wind their way around the circles.
At the center, some stop to read, think or pray; sometimes people
who are grieving leave an object there. Then they follow the same
path out.
"It's a good metaphor for life," says Andrea
Pronko, a Loveland, Ohio, arts director who's also a labyrinth
installer. "You get really frustrated because you can't see
where you're going, and you have to trust that the path will take you
to the center, you must really walk by faith, not by sight."
(Julie Irwin, "Peace found in ancient coil,"
The Cincinnati Enquirer, May 29, 1999).
I don't think I'm over-simplifying to say life feels like a
labyrinth at times -- with tortuous turns and stupefying setbacks --
so maybe some insight can be found in a meditative maze.
In today's lesson from
2 Kings 5,
the army commander Naaman has been whacked with a cruel condition:
He's a leper, suffering from one of the sickening
diseases of the skin that ravages people throughout the
world, eating away skin, bones and joints, and
often resulting in deformity, paralysis or even death.
He's got a disease. Any of you know about dis-ease. Now you know
why I started by talking about mazes. The main thing we want is out
of our dis-ease.
So Naaman, commander of the army of king Aram ... is looking for
healing, for a way out.
He's a mighty man, a gifted warrior, able to throttle enemies with
superior strategies. Naaman knows spears and swords and patrols and
sorties ...but in the face of this hideous hide condition he is
absolutely powerless, he knows nothing about leprosy except that he's
got it, and he needs a cure.
Thus begins his walk in the labyrinth.
For him, we can imagine that the maze includes some meandering
through the resources available in his own country, all of which fail
to free him from his affliction.
Next he turns, at the suggestion of a captured little maidservant
-- yeah, he's that desperate, to seek some alternative holistic
medicine south of the border.
And being a man of power and wealth Naaman brings with him signs of
his power and wealth. Silver and Gold and Fine Clothes...to lay on
the healer who set him free from dis-ease.
The practitioner, a man of God named Elisha, sends a servant out to
greet him...won't come out himself...
Naaman is a bit astounded... he has come all this way with all this
silver and gold and fine clothes and his entourage...which is quite
impressive...
And Elisha... sends out...not a nurse...an RN or
LN, not a tech, but the janitor...the
janitor... the servant... with a message...a
prescription... take a dip in the muddy labyrinth called the Jordan
River.
Don't try to get out of your dis-ease without going deep into it
first.
Naaman becomes angry and insists that there are bigger,
better and clearer rivers in his own country. "Could I
not wash in them, and be clean?" he sputters as he stomps
away
(2 Kings 5:12).
And he's right.
There are many rivers of healing available to us today.
In fact, for almost every agonizing aspect of human life,
we can name an institution, a science, a method
or a school of thought that has been created to respond to
that particular problem:
- If you are physically ill,
you can turn to medicine.
- If you are mentally ill,
you can count on psychiatry.
- If you have trouble expressing your emotions,
you can join a
sensitivity group or an encounter group.
Many of these secular "rivers" of help are
extremely effective.
But it is not enough for us to have physical, mental and emotional
wholeness.
We need spiritual healing as well.
One of the wrenching realities of life is that many otherwise
sound and talented people suffer from a kind of spiritual leprosy.
And when that is the case, medicine, psychiatry, encounter groups
and government programs are not, by themselves, the river of healing.
What is needed for spiritual wholeness is for the various aspects
of human life -- body, mind, conscience, emotions, reason and will --
to be organized around a human spirit that is committed to God.
If we follow the labyrinth to the center, the process may seem
murky and muddy, unreasonable and inconvenient.
But it is a process in which the fullness of life is found.
Following the path to spiritual wholeness requires humility, the
kind of humility that is finally willing to obey, something as
necessary for us as it is for Naaman, the mighty man who struggles to
follow the seemingly unintelligible instructions of Elisha.
"Go, wash in the Jordan seven times," suggests the
prophet, and to a military man like Naaman, accustomed to strategies
grounded in precedent and practicality, these words sound absurd.
But some of Naaman's servants, knowing full well that the mighty
man can't resist a challenge, egg him on by taunting, "You
would have accepted a truly difficult command from the prophet. Why
not respond to an easy one, 'Wash, and be clean'?"
(2 Kings 5:13).
So Naaman nods in reluctant agreement, strides down to the Jordan,
dunks himself in the muddy river seven times, and emerges without a
spot of leprosy -- he's completely healed and made whole.
Obedience is the key.
Obedience to the man of God who says, "Enter the muddy
maze."
Obedience to the word of a God who says, "Walk by faith,
not by sight."
Obedience along the lines of modern labyrinth-lovers who find that
their disciplined walk gives them a chance to cry -- to open
themselves to feelings of hurt, sadness, grief, disappointment,
betrayal, pain or fear, and to bring these deep and honest feelings to
God, who coaxes them always toward completeness.
Sometimes we assume that life is or should be a
straight-line experience leading to happiness and wholeness.
A linear movement from a to z with a pot of Gold at the end.
I don't know your world as well as you do but my life is seldom a
straight-line experience, but rather is filled with innumerable
conundrums through which we can find a center -- a center which is
always located in the will of God.
So what is the will of God?
Many of us stand with Naaman pondering strange instructions.
Naaman's was, "If you want to be cured of your leprosy,
go wash in old Jordan."
For a lot of us the message that comes in a silent ache of
the soul is, "If you want to be cured of your
dis-ease...pray...not just once, pray... or be
reconciled... or get over your anger... or get over
yourself..." for it is causing the destruction of your
soul.
And at root, we are all hearing forms of the same advice that the
church has been giving for centuries: "Trust God and be made
whole."
It may not be the sentence we were expecting, but it's the one we
need to hear.
And to learn the will of God... as in all acts of commitment to God,
once is not enough.
A single dip in the muddy labyrinth is never enough for
authority-resistant creatures such as Naaman ... and ourselves.
Seven plunges are required -- or 70 times seven. Only multiple
immersions can drown our obsession with precedent and practicality,
and overcome our hostile resistance to the guidance of our God.
Spiritual wholeness requires a deep daily dip in the healing
waters of obedience, even when the river is muddy and the path of
the quickly flowing maze is completely perplexing.
When we go under we can't see at all, the current pushes us and
we strangely lose our balance and begin to wobble.
Please, can't we at least be in a clean river where we can
maintain control?
And the answer comes, "Not if you want to be
healed.".
When we take this faithful leap, we discover that the water is
healing and the wandering itself is revealing -- the twists and turns
of the labyrinthine experience actually lead to clarity, not
confusion.
Amazing insights erupt whenever we leap and swim and wander the
amazing maze of life in obedience to God.
Walking the Lord's path, we discover that it is truly more blessed
to give than to receive.
... that it is impossible to serve both God and wealth
... that those who find their lives will lose them, and those who
lose their lives for Christ's sake will find them
...that peace finally comes...not when the lamb has destroyed
the lion... but when the lamb and the lion lie down together.
... that unless we change and simply have faith like children, we
will never enter the kingdom of heaven
... that whoever serves the hungry, the thirsty, the naked, the
sick and the imprisoned is really serving Jesus himself.
These surprising truths are made clear only through multiple dips
in the muddy maze, for they are certainly not part of the path that
the world lays out for us.... these require taking turns that seem
unreasonable and inconvenient.
It is not always clear at first glance what our Lord is doing with
us.
There is a day in which Jesus puts saliva on a blind man's eyes
and lays hands on him.
Jesus asks, "Can you see anything?" and the man
responds, "I can see people, but they look like trees,
walking."
So Jesus lays his hands on the man's eyes again, and this time
he looks intently, and his sight is restored. Finally,
we are told, he sees everything clearly
(Mark 8:22-26).
It's a strange little story, isn't it?
But so true to life in the labyrinth.
Sometimes our healing takes
a path we do not expect, or it seems incomplete at first.
We have to hang in there and let Jesus continue working with us.
In our fix-it-quick or throw-it-away world the insight of this
passage does not come easily... but sometimes the vision Jesus gives us
is confusing.
When that happens, the point is not to cope with the confusion.
The point is to look more intently at Jesus, until we see that he is
not done restoring our lives.
Fullness of life is found at the center of the muddy labyrinth, at
the core of the coil where Christ resides.
Only by walking his maze faithfully can we commit ourselves
completely to the will of God, and wend our way toward a spiritual
wholeness that wraps together body, mind, conscience, emotions, reason
and Spirit.
It is in deep, daily dips in the waters of obedience that we
experience the healing that God provides.
So what about those slave bones and the parsonage by the cemetery?
It gets worse before it gets better.
The people of the church did some checking about their legal
responsibility... and in the end, they dug the hole for the basement
about 10 feet deeper, put all the bones pushed out by the bulldozer
down in the hole and covered them with dirt before they poured the
foundation.
Lowry in retelling the story is flabbergasted,
"How can you live in a house in the middle of a slave
graveyard?
How can you live in a house built on top of the bones of slaves?
How can you sleep at night?
How can you even go into the house?
How can you minister at this church with the people who did that?
It boils my blood!"
And it does bother me... but also it's kind of interesting... that
in this place where it is so obvious that God's will was not done...
that God still speaks to those who have ears to hear...
It is interesting...
that the one who represents Jesus...
the one who brings the gospel Word into that church every week...
the one who proclaims God's message to these people...
brings it from outside the walls of respectability and walks
through the shadows of the graveyard
...because he resides on the other side with the slaves.
And somehow...maybe that is appropriate.
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